In the last three weeks, I have not written as much as I would like. I spent a few days in Germany, then I was sick for another four. And while I thought up another book idea I am still lagging behind in writing up others 😦 I think I might be suffering from writer’s block 😦
I am writing up the sequel to Jumpstart, but it’s going so slow. Perhaps only a few hundred words a day. I don’t know why my brain is so mushy. I know the rough order of events. And work has let me stay in the downstairs part of the restaurant during my split shifts. I have the time.
I read somewhere that writer’s block is the manifestation of a person’s fear of failure so that they are too scared to even try to write. And I feel that. What if I can’t finish it? But that’s a stupid thought because I’ve succeeded with others.
I am a bit worried that I won’t be able to keep the main character the same, but that’s just because I’ve never written a sequel before. I don’t know how this book is going to end either. That’s a red flag don’t you think?
But I have a bit more success with this other book idea. I thought it up while in Germany. It actually takes from this idea I had when I was 20. But it’s a story I never developed that much. Maybe if I do I’ll set it in the same universe or something. I’ve done about 5,000 words of it. I thought that was pretty good, but for some reason the next day I thought that I could have done more 😦
Arrrggg. I’m doing the eighth edit of Jumpstart and I’m still finding things wrong with it 😦 It just reminds me that I’m still working on the stories that I thought I’d have completed by now. I’ve got three almost ready, but I’m getting spent with them. I just want to move to other things. But the fact that they are uncompleted sit in my brain taking up space and energy. I’ve got some sci-fi stories I want to move onto.
This all has to do with the fact that I have this 10 books by age 30 goal thing. I’m turning 28 in a month and I wanted to get at least one story out months ago 😦 I’m just annoyed that I underestimate my time and talent management.
I think the only thing I’ll have done by my birthday is a short story I wrote the other month. I think it is almost done. I need to make up a cover image and do maybe 2/3 more drafts.
I finished the 7th draft of Jumpstart last night and at times it was like pulling my fingernails out. There were times when I was taking an hour to do a single A4 page 😦 The previous draft was a lot easier and I thought I was nearing the end of the process. But this one just shows that there was a lot of mistakes to fix.
It makes me think that maybe I haven’t improved as much as I thought when it comes to writing/editing. I mean it’s been five years since I first completed my Feet or Fins manuscript and three since I managed to put it out there. That book took fourteen edits before it was ready and in the time since, I’ve written so much. I should have leveled up by now.
But maybe I am leveling up and I can just see more errors? Hopefully, when I come back to the next edit, it’ll be better 🙂